My very first Mothers Day

What an odd thing it is...to transition from spending Mothers Day celebrating your mom to actually having Mothers Day about you. Thanks to you Cash, I now get another day to be spoiled :)

What do I think about being a mother? I think it is tiring, draining, joyous, incredible, frustrating, loving, spectacular, difficult, eye opening, special, a blessing...and, well I could go on and on, but you get that point.

What does it mean to be your mother? Well, to be honest Cash, it is incredible. I never imagined I could possibly love someone so much. My heart is overflowing with love for you. I love to look at your features, love to watch you grow, love to watch you learning and changing every single day. I love watching your daddy with you, makes me love him more and more every day to see how much he loves you.

It is a true gift from God to be your mother. I thank Him for you often. For the opportunity to carry you in my tummy, to birth you and to now raise you. I pray often for guidance, to be a great mother and example for you, to do the right things. I pray for your life, for you to grow into a loving and caring young man. That you would have God in the center of your life. That you would see flaws in nobody and love with an endless love. I pray you get to do all the things you want in life. That I can provide you with things you deserve. That we will make many memories together, although we already have so many.

So my first Mothers Day was spent with you and your daddy. And it ended up being a really great day. My gift? Exhaust on my car, something I wanted. We went to dinner at my favorite place...Simply Fondue. Even typing that makes me mouth water! It was delicious and you were a very good date.

Walking to the restaurant

At our table

Snoozing away through our dinner!

My love bug

Little ham!!

After dinner we walked outside for a little bit and snapped some pictures before we lost light...

Daddy's boy

We came home and got you into some jammies

And then of course I cuddled with you.

I hope when you look back at life Cash, that you are proud I am your mom. That you are proud of the mom I was and am and that I raised you the best I could. I hope you never get to old to hug and kiss me or tell me you love me. I hope you always know you can talk to me and I will listen, but I am going to give you advice..I mean...I am your mom after all! I hope you find comfort in my arms and never hold things in when you are hurting. 

And most of all...I hope you know just how much I love you. Because Cash...it is a whole lot.

I can't wait to spend many more Mothers Day's with you. I love you my little bean.